So pissed

I wrote this long, extra tedious post and it vanished into cyberspace. Gone. Poof! Like Hillary’s emails, just… not there. Not that it was a literary masterpiece buy it was heartfelt, honestly written, soul searching… okay maybe not soul searching, but it WAS long. I don’t have the oomph or battery to recreate it, so […]

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62 days!

I’m hanging in there. I can’t believe I made it this far. It’s a dream… a nightmare sometimes, I won’t say it’s easy or I don’t crave it, but I am staying strong.   I do have the worst sinus thing going on. Referred to an ENT, my Dr said, “I got nothing for you.” […]

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3rd time is the charm?

I’ve not posted in such a long time. After thinking I could do it alone and didn’t need to journal, I can see that something isn’t working. The old saying, insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result. I have quit twice. The first time was in April of […]

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Why am I such a hot mess?

So yesterday I had the last of my stash smoked up by morning. There’s something really sad about sitting down with morning coffee and a blob of dope on tin foil to start the day. I decided, I’m not going to call my friend to get more today. I’ll make do with the percocets I […]

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First post- “Precovery”

So I’ve been reading a lot about ¬†how to become sober and overcoming opiate addiction. Apparently I’m in the phase they call precovery. I want to become sober, but I’m not. As a matter of fact, I just smoked some heroin a half an hour ago. I suppose I am lucky in that I have […]

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